I pretty much had this whole blog written about doing New Year's resolutions the yogic way. About screwing the usual »I'm going to start going to the gym three times a week/will not succumb to weekend Netflix marathons/stop eating junk food« and rather focusing on how we'd like to feel in the new year and then basing our goals on that.
But---if you know me, you know there's always a but---then I stopped and realized that no matter how much living in the present is where it's at (or supposed to be), it's inevitable to not think about the past, but rare are the moments when we actually take a minute to, instead of feeling guilty about all the things that we didn't do or didn't do well enough, find those things that make us say »f*ck yeah, that was awesome.«
Can you remember the last time you looked back at your past and thought of all the things that went right and that you're proud of? Because I can't. And although I hope that's just me, I have a feeling I'm not the only one who has a hard time being proud of herself.
But wait, you didn't have a baby, get married, traveled the world or launched your amazing business this year? I didn't either. And you know what? I know for sure that you and I can still find around a bazillion things that we did do »right« and that made our 2018 rock without those big events that get paraded on social media over and over and over again.
So before you start feeling like you didn't do enough in 2018, remember all those times when you...
... fell down but got back up again. Because some things are well worth it.
... stood up for the rights of others.
... made someone laugh until they almost peed themselves and snorted beer/kombucha out of their nose.
... hugged someone for a few moments longer than you normally would and made a total difference to their day.
... listened with your whole heart.
... saw the pain in someone's eyes and held their gaze for a little longer and maybe made them realize that their pain is seen too.
... saw, and I mean really saw, another person and didn't look away because that would have been easier.
... gave without expecting anything in return.
... didn't give up when things got tough because you believed in something with your whole heart.
... gave up, realizing things have run its course. Because there's strength in letting go.
... listened to your heart instead of someone else's rational mind.
... stood your ground and fought for a better world, no matter how small that act might seem.
... felt grief, deep grief, and instead of turning away from it and running as fast as you could, you turned around, looked it in the eyes and let your pain pour out of your eyes and down your cheeks. Over. And over. And over again.
... gave the benefit of a doubt.
... accepted a part of you that you're not comfortable with and with it accepted your humanness.
... made a mistake and weren't scared to admit it.
... made a mistake, were scared to admit it but you admitted it anyway.
... caught yourself realizing that this, right at this moment, is all you ever need.
And if New Year resolutions are your jam, go ahead, make plans for 2019. Hell, I might write some down as well. But, if by the end of 2019 your list looks pretty similar to the one above, I hope you know you're nothing less than a kickass, amazing, shining person. Like every cheesy quote ever said: it's the little things that matter. ;)
From my heart to yours,